Welcome to His Encouragement Thursday! I don’t know about you, but Thursdays are my struggle day of the week. By Thursday, I have already been working hard at school and at home, and I just wish it would hurry up and be Friday already. LOL! I definitely need a little extra Jesus time on Thursdays.
I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.Psalm 91:2 (ESV)
Last Saturday at church, my pastor said, “It’s easy to trust in God when we’re not focused on ourselves.”
This quote is the kind of truth that sits in your brain all week and makes you think and think. What I’ve been thinking about all week is “why is it so hard for me to trust?” Trust is the HARDEST thing for me to do. It actually fills me with shame because no one should ever struggle to trust God. I mean, He’s God. If you can’t trust God, you truly can’t trust anyone.
I know for a fact that the issue lies with me and me alone. God is NEVER the problem. So what is my problem?
We could go into a psychological analysis of my childhood, my young adulthood, my medical traumas, the early days of my marriage, etc., and find a ton of things that would lead to my many trust issues. I’m sure a trained therapist would have a field day breaking my psyche down. BUT, the truth is I’m WAY too self focused — I’m always stressing about what I can do, what I can’t do, my cowardice, my fears, my anxieties, etc. I’m constantly in my head thinking about ME and that is the number one reason why I struggle to trust. I have to get out of my head. I have to stop focusing on ME.
Instead, I have to be like the psalmist and declare out loud, “God! YOU are my refuge, YOU are my fortress, YOU are my God, YOU have ALL the power and control, and I put my trust in YOU.” I need to declare this truth and then keep my focus on GOD.
It’s not easy for me to trust. BUT, I’ve got to get over myself. I have to be like a horse with blinders on and keep my eyes firmly on Jesus. When I do, trusting Him will be easy-peasy!